A girl's mind

Staring at this catching breath Coming to realize things out in frustration  Wherever I go or whatever I try  Cannot stop with this feeling of miss  Can't take the pain of emptiness  Whom so ever I hangout with  Theres something off about the vibe  Feels like I dont somehow belong  In such a thing called crowd Things change people change in a blink  Yet you, end up in world of wonder, lost in confusion ~Pinkly Girly~

Now its that time of the year Where everything falls in its place right here where we realize all the things that fell onto us  and all the things that stayed right at our side when we needed  and make promises to ourselves to never let it shatter Being thankful and with high hopes raising ahead of us  This time, with bitterness and sorrows Here I am, bitterly with regrets But thankful to all that stayed  No matter what costed the carelessness ~Pinkly Girly~

A one like mine is so hard to find Dig a tunnel and yet you may try  Hopelessly in feelings of deep  shattered cannot fall in sleep  Gleeful smile and laughter all you see underneath burried heart to feel utterly broken which needs to heal out of range in happiness try, one two three ~Pinkly Girly~

M y little angel this is just for you Words cant express how much I miss you  How can I ever forget the day I saw you  With your little eyebrows frawning, all so true  A nswers your question if you ever read this Messier my mind got loosing to fist You were the light to my eyes, the happiness to my soul  Try to ponder! raised you since the day you were born till years two  N ow all I can remember is your cuddles and scream "jaiiiii" With excitement, running into my arms hugging me till I cannot breathe The way you touch your forehead on mine And kiss my whole face like there's no tomorrow, and look at me with smile  H ow amazing those days passed by Never I realized this day would come by Not seeing you made my heart fall in two Breaking on an on, crashing into my thoughts of you A ll in all dearest sibling of mine Know that you were, and still is the favourite of mine Love your defined character, true one of a kind Be sincere like that, oh my little sunshi...

Am I asking for much?  Or am I just being human?  Or am I being too dramatic?  Or am I depressed?  Feeling worthless and uttely lonely  Is that normal to always feel?  sometimes in peaks and sometime in deep Am I asking too much?  Precious time to note my existance importance much  Just remind me that Im being missed Compliment message randome and unexpected Remind that I do matter  A Reminder that spoils out my sadness flutter Am I asking for gold or something affordable cost you much in double?  Sms or any other social medias made life simple but not for me, prooving me I dont matter much tumble

Where am I from  Where do I belong to someone? with someone? or just no one along?  Outcasted, left alone or out dated or even just expired?  Dissapointment misleading deceiving evil is all I can see Resentment for love and desire is hard to heal Human in me has become nightmare to be  Screaming for an aid, whom or wherever you maybe Idiotic stupidity foolishness why do I feel?  Left in sight where did my mind go in sleep?  ~Pinkly Girly~

Close my book of heart Go along with it ends up hurt Love Satisfaction Happiness in a mixed up bowl Is all I need right now, left right above or below ~Pinkly Girly~

Reality hits to ponder What the hell I got into I wonder Where to start and where to end in  Furious my mind trying to set in  Forth left out with no conclusion  Heart skipping beats uneven in illusion Pumps for another but he is nowhere  to be found messed up my head in adhere Stick to one and jump with my eyes closed Cause inreal, no one loves me more than him, ofcourse ~Pinkly Girly~