Cringe

Have never thought this would be my life
Never have I thought I'd see this in my sight
That the word itself pisses me off
Loosing my appetite, loosing myself off
Frown that creates on my face
Never can brush this off my face
No more dearly so called "beloved"
How can I not from what I've seen
Haven't I had enough what do you feel?
Act of sincere within their faces towards me is
So insincere but yet there is
No way to expose, they really need an Oscar
Haven't I gave you all the time, 23 almost heading 24
Since birth I have been nothing but polite
In respect and always been kind
Been nothing but always helpful whenever you all needed
But what did I get back in return within deeded
I want no revenge, I want no facing
All I want is sincerity, do you love me or not? to me please keep on honestly telling
Cut off the crappy hypocrisy, no more I want to see
Cut off that fake smile, no longer I want to be
I want you all out of my sight and out of my life
In a place no where you all find me and my sincere love
Feels so powerless, but hate the acting
All I can do is this cringe, and stay lifeless with no hesitating

-Pinkly Girly-